I must say.... those "true fans" have it over me for BSG.

 

I don't care about the fifth cylon; not even a passing interest.

 

I don't care if they find another Earth or stay there on radiation planet.

 

If Laure Roslin dies or not;

 

if sci-fi greenlights 20 BSG movies.

 

Real life vs. imagined life; how can one who truly lives real ever find that a show compares to real suffering.

 

I've been such a fool. Foolish to waste good time in RL and still not be seen, truly.

Can you see me now; can your heart reach those depths?

 

No. I was just fooling myself.

 

Wasted, wasteland. Is this all we are; filling our days with wasted moments to say what? What do you have to say? DO you ever look at things, not with your senses, or your genitalia, but with your heart?

 

I've seen you think with your intellect, your ego, and even your genitalia but without seeing with your heart all of these are useless to find true peace and happiness.

 

 

There are 3 treasures they say in Buddhism; the treasures of the storehouse, the treasures of the body and treasures of the heart. And the tresures of the heart are the most valuable of all.

The treasures of the storehouse you have in spades, meaning wealth, social standing, power and the  praise and gratitude of peers and colleagues.

 

You also have many treasures of the body,including health,and intelligence.

 

These are great to have but without treasures of the heart these grow tiresome and dull and an emptieness will fill you when you are not distracted by the matters of your limited life.

 

We say that we must break the shell of our lesser self in order to allow these most important treasures of the heart into our lives; the purpose and drive and fire that answers the question of why  we are here.

We can then see ourselves most clearly and consequently all phenomona.

Without seeing with the heart, you caannot see clearly; all is a TV script; a mere shadow if what is really there.

 

You canna see what is;      without it.

 

And you canna see me clearly as well.

 

I was a resource to you, nothing more; something to be exploited for your gain.

You don't know the sacrifices made on your behalf; the last dollars I've had for a week here or there; to dialogue with you; the digging into myself to provide for you ideas and concepts for your perusal;that obtained for you this lofty perch you now sit upon in the sci-fi galaxy. The humilation swallowed, the anger redirected,  the loss of critical sleep many times over (even now)so that you and your show succeed. The endless chanting that will continue ; that keeps marking time until the day you find your heart and operate through it.

I did it FOR YOU, for All of you, for your families, for your future.

 

I paid it forward FOR YOU. No matter how badly it worked out for me, I have hope and you can never take that from me; that one day, one moment in one day in a future time, place or lifetime you will find your heart on the greater scale; than you limit it to be now. A heart as large as  any universe with no fetters and chains.

 

A free heart.

 

And when you  finally find yourself at that breath-taking moment; I can then truly smile and say :Welcome my dear friend. You've made it. I amso vey proud of you and so overjoyed for you. Can you see me clearly now? You have made the struggle all worthwhile if you see me now.

 Go then. Now the universe lies at your feet.  

 

 

 

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