Did Kai Ever Really Love Xev? (spoilers)
i agree that kai could have loved zev, maybe. kai appears far more interested in zev, than he ever did in xev. my theory is when he first began to think again, a lot of internal nerves long dead began to fire, and he experienced a small rush of emotions from 2000 years past. after the death of zev, also after the deaths of his world and his old love, and his forced betrayal of everything he believed in by being changed into an assassin, and his renewed watching of humanity, he fell into what would be called a deep depression, if the dead have depressions. in the last episode, he clearly began to be affected sexually by xev, and in his last interaction with her, was feeling very sympathetic to her yearning pain, but could not overcome his heroic tendencies. i also think, that if had he been given a chance to experience life for awhile, he would not be thinking, gee, i have to die to resolved my past issues.
of course, the reality is, MM probably was still trying to get a handle on his character in the movies and was not really fully intellectualizing what someone would be like if he was alive dead. his acting in the movies was reflecting more life in Kai than what he evolved Kai to be later since obviously MM is alive. MM perfected being more dead than alive as the years went by. also, i believe the creators and writers were not going as far as MM did with intellectualizing the character, and were more interested in a world view of cartoon characters they could play with to get out their satiric, sarcastic and perhaps a little bitter take on people and societies.
i don’t agree with MM’s decision and argument to make him that dead after the middle of the second year. i think it would have been more interesting to make kai more conflicted with dead memories than MM wanted. possibly MM didn’t want to work so hard at developing Kai, and making Kai VERY VERY dead reduced his having to work much on the series. don’t get me wrong, MM was professional and very good at what he did, otherwise, i would not still be grabbing for tissues every hour or so for the last week whenever i remember the last 20 minutes of that episode. i also do not want to watch my dvd’s for awhile because i am so sad. but a part of me also knows this was a job for the actors, not a calling.