a friend of mine died
I feal the same way!!!
I dont now what to say, Im not good at talking about things like this but you and your friend is in my thoughts!!!
My life has bein Hell (And Im only 21) so I understand what you mean about seing series and dreaming in to the caracters lifes!!!
Seing there trubles and there happy times!!!
I doe that al the time!!!
I never had any real friends or any real girlfriends ( my only girlfriend broke up with me after 3 days) and my family redjects me!!! The only ones that dont treat me like **** is my mom and my brother!!!
The only real friend I had was my grandmother (fathers side)!!! I played with here when I was litle (We used to si by her tabel and drive toycars to etchouther and playd games and… the Bibel!!! She always read to me from the Bibel!!!
And her kärlost (Swedish thing (witsh dies out with the old generation and the machine milking of cows) mad frome the milk that the cow makes fore there (cow babis)!!! Mixed with spices, russin, coked and eaten with fruit sause), here wafols and giving me candy!!! Whel, she died last year!!! She was in a home and I dident se her as ofen as I intended to doe! The dockters made a “mistake” and gave here fore the 3:d time a medisine that almost killed her in the past! She was alerdgick to it but they never checked the files!!! She would have lived fore manny years more if that hadent happen!!! I blocked out that she had died and pretended that it never hapend (I gues that I couldent stand the greaf)but at x-mas time when we where at my fathers sister pleace and she showed a video of one time when my grandmothere selebrated X-mas with them and she played here Dragspel (dont now the English word fore it!!! A musicinstrument that is like a scottish pipe but with butens and pressing insted of blowing) I just starded out in tears and thought that I would die of greaf!!!
I dont now way I told you al this, I gues that I just whant you to now that I understand som of what you are going thruw!!!
I kant wright more now!!! To painful!!!
Like I said… You and your friend are in my thoughts!!!
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I am the crusader